Yea.

That remind me the conversation we were talking about

"Lo cari aja yang lain, trus kalo udah putus lo balikan sama gue. Biar tau aja bedanya apa gue sama orang lain"

"Nah, kalo gue udah putus trus mau balikan sama lo, tapi lo udah punya pacar gimana?"

"Ya gue tetep sama cewe gue lah"

"Yee gausah janji-janji...."

"Yeh maksudnya bukan janji...."

"Gue gamau cari yang lain, gatau sampe kapan"

 
Ini naif. Apa sedih itu wajar?

Maybe somewhere out there, you've got 'it'. That you like 'it' much. More than you did to me.
Yea,Me&Pointless :((

Rasanya dikuntit

Gimana rasanya kalo kalian dikuntit alias diikuti sama orang bahkan sampe bertaun-taun?

Gue ngalamin hal kayak gini dari  kelas 1 smp. Dan itu rasanya @$%&^&#(~*#...
Dia, sebut aja X (orang yang sukanya nguntit) adalah temen SD gue. Tapi semenjak gue sempet beberapa kali papasan di rumah temen gue, dia mulai buat yang aneh-aneh.
Awalnya dari sms. Sekali dua kali masih basa-basi nanya ini itu. Gue cuma tanggapin mungkin 2 kali sms. Tapi makin lama makin ganggu. Sms mulai yang aneh-aneh, dia nanya kabar, lagi dimana, gue lagi ngapain. Emangnya kalo gue lagi mandi harus bilang-bilang??! Dan itu bisa sampe tiap hari.

Gak cuma sampe sms, tapi mulai naik tingkat ke telpon. Tiap abis magrib, gue matiin hp karna dia nelpon bisa puluhan kali walaupun selalu gue reject. Gue sempet ganti nomor waktu itu, tapi ternyata gue apes dia bisa aja dapet nomor gue yang baru gatau dari mana.  Dia juga sampe berani manggil-manggil dari depan rumah. Akhirnya gue frustasi. Gue bales sms nya, dari baik-baik ngomong biar ga usah ganggu-ganggu lagi, dia malah nanya "emang nya kenapa?" sampe gue maki-maki &isi kebonbin keluar, ternyata tetep ga mempan. Mungkin dia mengharapkan gue simpati atas dasar kelakuannya. Tapi caranya bilang yang dia rasain kayak begitu malah bikin antipati orang.

Dari situ gue pikir dia psycho

Pernah, temen cowok gue nawarin bantuan &langsung nelpon X. Tapi mereka malah berantem. Ujung-ujungnya tetep aja kayak gitu. Gue cuma takut X ngelakuin hal-hal yang makin aneh, mainannya udah yang ga bener. Dan itu seremmmmm dikuntit orang sampe segitunya. Gue gatau punya riwayat apa sama dia, wong deket aja juga enggak.

Untungnya udah makin kesini udah ga pernah kontak-kontak lagi. Kecuali tiap lebaran, dia selalu sms minta maaf. Dan kemarin dia tiba-tiba muncul kontak lewat twitter. Sebenernya kalo buat maafin pasti dimaafin, asal ya itu, ga perlu lagi lah ganggu orang.
Semoga abis ini semuanya happyyyy :)))

I lost my passion

I've said this many. I'm ignore my fault, I'm on the wrong way. Still can't be a good one.
We've had good things for 2 years. For the first I met you then became yours. Like we used to be, so comfort. No matter how the past ruined us. You made day by day such a better day.

You've got me as your girl. I've got you on mind. We were in love.

But now we can't take that so long. Won't same as before, maybe we can lost each other for looong time, or forever? Know that too painful you have and too many problem faced us. I hate when I pushed you to stay, understand me, carrying me, eventou you don't want.

I lost my passion

My phone's missing your messages, my ear's missing your voice on the phone, my hand missing your touch and hey, still you remember Mimo? boneka kuda yang kamu bilang sapi haha I thank for your gift :] Mimo stay behind me when I asleep.

I wish I could make things way simple. Wish you were here, next to me, laugh, tell a story, tell the future and spent time at bookstore, or just share our bad habbits.

-What're you doin without me there? I MISS YOU-

I've never said that I can't find another guy, but I also never said that I try to movin on. You're nice guy. I feel bad. Feel sad&painful too, many. But I can't do anything. I'm sorry for making you do this. Sorry for my annoying behavior you hate. I'm suck to make you happy.

Hard to forget but in fact I need it. I'm stuck on 20.
Keeps our relation, to be your partner or friend or bestfriend.
No, I'm not gonna hate you. 

Sorry for long and weirdo post. That's all I've got to say
Did you feel the same?